Thursday

I actually can see a speck of sun. :) It has rained non stop here for the last three days. I didn't realize how much of an effect that has on a person emotionally. In Montana we don't have days that are so gray, it more or less just and goes and usually doesn't last very long.

Joshua is still about the same. He has a little more fluid on board which from the mommy perspective is a good thing. I have never looked at him and seen a sick baby. This week, I have. He looks like he has a sick heart. It has been a very hard transition for me. Almost like a reality check. We are still unsure as to what is happening. Maybe withdrawal, maybe his heart is just really sick, maybe he has an infection, maybe....maybe....maybe....


On a positive note. He looks like he is breathing easily. His #'s are pretty good. Heart rate is still higher than we would like and he keeps getting these darn fevers. You will see our cooling system in the picture. (He actually really likes the cool cloths. He like the head one over his eyes....strange.) Over the last several days he has been throwing up often. It appears that he had some changes in his medication again that we will need to discuss. Since yesterday it seems to have subsided for the most part.


I will keep you posted.


Leah
This was still on the vent. It was actually taken right before he was extibated.
This one was taken yesterday. He hasn't been awake much since he was extibated.